things as of late

Im still looking for a job which is really annoying.

Im hoping to work at this cute little clothing store, and increase my closet size.

I have a significant other type person in my life right now, but Im not attached as I usually would be. Cause love happens when it does, no sense in rushing things, besides Im gonna be making alot of money when I graduate, so whoever Im with it better not be no sugar mamma deal.

Im so so excited to be going to school in August, whats the deal with schools starting in august?

haha oh well I suppose.

I still am without phone, but am growing ever so accustomed to this lack of luxery.

I am renting a house from my dad!!! whoot whoot which is awesome cause I get to be close to my family.

(they went out of town today so Im stealing internet, and last nights hot dish)

My relationship with God is a trial day by day.

I find myself hungry again.

Its weird though not being surrounded by my core of Godly people.

I have busted out my piano, and am excited to learn praise and worship songs, filtered in between with Imogen heap, and paul simon, and Nirvana songs. :) :)

I love love love love love my new house though.

Im planting flowers as soon as I can.

Well maybe tommorrow I will be able to post something else,

Sorry this is so random.

OOOOOooo I am excited to say Im reading again though.

I read 133 pages last night and this morning.

I also organized my beads and painting supplies.

So projects are underway.

The whats and who's of not being able to sleep

Last night,

I definatly couldn't fall asleep.

I found myself tripping over the events of this past year.

I found myself missing people, and wondering if they miss me.

I found myself wondering alot.

Wondering is a terrible habit.

It accomplishes nothing, and yet I insist on doing it all the time.

I wonder if he likes me?

I wonder if she is mad at me?

All these stupid trivial meaningless wonderings.

I have decided if I cannot find the answer out myself,

If I am to scared to find out the answer to all my wonderings,

That they are nothing to loose sleep over.

I lost sleep last night for sure.

I worry too much.

Last night I wondered if the events of the last year will change my life forever.

Well duh, events change everything.

Who you meet, who you lose, where you go.

I have met and lost amazing people this year.

I have gone amazing places.

I will not loose sleep wondering anymore.

Kinda silly.

I can still wonder,

It's just part of daydreaming.